The Loneliness of Dusk
89th of Glade, Year 123 of the Age of Steel
There were only the sounds of her footsteps as she entered the arena. The ends of her white robes brushed softly against the dirt floor, but she barely paid any mind to it. Relief flooded her veins as she confirmed that the place was empty.
Dawnhold was throwing a modest banquet in honor of their guests from Ailos as the skies grew dark. Anyone not actively on duty was invited. Unsurprisingly, most of the knights and aspirants had flocked to the celebration, leaving the rest of the town practically empty. With the long, long winter, no one would miss the chance for a bit of revelry.
Yet, Veriel had excused herself early - far earlier than what would have been considered polite. Her smile was faltering and her tongue struggled to form words. The conversations were a blur and she couldn’t count how many times she had lost track of when people were talking directly to her. The elf had caught herself staring at the spellforged commander almost the entire time. Asking why why why it couldn’t be him standing there instead? Why did the gods allow her to survive while Endrik Shiryo was dead and mutilated?
A demented thought - Veriel was well aware - but she couldn’t stop herself. It had been a while since she felt this out of sorts.
All these years Veriel had tried to heal the pain. Every time the grief came, she would tell herself that Ryo would want her to move on. That as the time passed, so would the heartbreak. She believed that she had finally gotten herself together. The siltori had set foot inside the Imperium, yet managed to drag herself out in order to fulfill Arcas’s request - instead of seeking revenge. That was proof enough that her anger had subsided, right?
But here she was, walking unsteadily with Novuril in hand. She barely even remembered she had gone to fetch the blade. Perhaps the wound hadn’t healed at all. She had just refused to look at it at some point, pretending it did not exist.
That night the weapon felt different in her hand. Strange and unbalanced. Alien. Perhaps it recognized the darkness in her thoughts. Perhaps it decided she wasn’t worthy, after all. Because would she give it away if she could have Ryo back? Veriel was ashamed of how easily the answer came.
Nonetheless, it wasn’t an option. All she had now was the blade and the cost it carried. The cruelest thing was, she was chosen to make all of it worth it. To prove that there was meaning in all of the deaths, in Ryo’s death.
Closing her eyes as the tears fell, Veriel took a basic stance - the exact one her kathar had taught her a century ago - and danced as light turned to dusk.