"I always thought so," he interjected quietly. If he was honest, he wished Brenner a speedy rise to captaincy, then a lateral move for himself as Captain Dornkirk's XO. Though he would always strive to reach his father's stature, a part of him was certain that he ought to be kept on a tighter leash than that, lest his self-control ever waver and put his fellow airmen and citizens at risk. Ought a man whose soul was scarred by runic inscription be trusted with such responsibilities? It was a problem he struggled with before sleep claimed him every night. In any case, even when boyhood became more difficult to maneuver through than shark-infested waters, he had looked up to Brenner Dornkirk. A part of him had assumed that his public unkindnesses were backhanded attempts to prepare him for reality.
But his smile was sincere when he matched the toast and drank. It wouldn't be so terrible to be Brenner's XO and let his striving to better himself only serve to help Brenner do the same. At least, it had worked in the games they played as boys. But now they were men and their games held the weight of deadly consequences.
"Hail Zaichaer!" A few nearby officers took up the cheer, both from patriotic sentiment and the desire to quaff more ale and bask in the camaraderie of valiant men.
After ruminating a bit upon what he said of the other member of the Order, he had to add, albeit reluctantly, "I have learned a great deal from the Wardens, but I am glad that my primary assignment is the Air Defense Corps. Perhaps because of how I grew up, the military makes more sense to me than the byzantine structure of the Order. I have no specific grievances, but I know that when I have faltered... I have heard the siren song of easy power. Thankfully, there is sufficient oversight to keep me on the straight and narrow. But when magi become powerful within the Order..." He sighed. "I ought to trust in the structure of the State, but I have niggling fears all the same."
But his smile was sincere when he matched the toast and drank. It wouldn't be so terrible to be Brenner's XO and let his striving to better himself only serve to help Brenner do the same. At least, it had worked in the games they played as boys. But now they were men and their games held the weight of deadly consequences.
"Hail Zaichaer!" A few nearby officers took up the cheer, both from patriotic sentiment and the desire to quaff more ale and bask in the camaraderie of valiant men.
After ruminating a bit upon what he said of the other member of the Order, he had to add, albeit reluctantly, "I have learned a great deal from the Wardens, but I am glad that my primary assignment is the Air Defense Corps. Perhaps because of how I grew up, the military makes more sense to me than the byzantine structure of the Order. I have no specific grievances, but I know that when I have faltered... I have heard the siren song of easy power. Thankfully, there is sufficient oversight to keep me on the straight and narrow. But when magi become powerful within the Order..." He sighed. "I ought to trust in the structure of the State, but I have niggling fears all the same."