Re: Brittle
Posted: Wed Jul 27, 2022 11:29 pm
SEARING 23, 122
It was all he could do to turn his head, facing towards the dark armor as it lingered there, much as it had throughout their time together. He'd thought to ask about it, but strayed from doing so. There was little eagerness that Kathar be curious men -- information was given to them when necessary, and rarely upon request. Given that, he tried to suppress the eerie feeling imparted onto him by the dark metal sheets, pressing his lips together and rolling his head back near the center of Talon's lap.
Asher said nothing. He could not advise Talon on that, either, because he did not know what the armor was, or what it would do to him. He did not want the other man to lose his gentle nature, or to become some thoughtless weapon for the Empire. Loyal as he was, Asher was also well aware of the corrupting influence of power. Wielding Talon as a tool of dominion would not make the Imperium any more righteous -- if anything, doing so risked a pernicious descent.
The man seemed distracted, even as Talon's face neared his. The other man's hands on his body felt nice -- very much so -- but he did not want to lose sight of his worries, dark thoughts or not. He reached up to grab and squeeze at the edge of the other man's pectoral, before anchoring himself and sliding upright, moving so that his back laid gently into the Synnekar's chest. Asher breathed out, sharply, and whispered into his ear.
"Don't wear it," he murmured, the Knight's breath rolling over his lover's skin. "I enjoy you the way you are, my companion."
He felt a sting in his chest, feedback from betraying the precepts that were subconsciously ingrained into him. He had explicitly asked for the other to go against the Imperium's preferences, its will. Looking at the darkly clad plate, though, he envisioned Talon as just another killer -- another Imperial harbinger of war and devastation, and he felt repulsed. Some of it, he acknowledged, was pride. The Kathar had always been enough, and the Imperium's influence had only grown over time, not waned. He wondered why they would seek to harness a Divine, even to change him, corrupt him.
It was all difficult to grasp, and it made him feel weary. Finally, he decided he would not linger on this subject anymore, just as Talon had advised. The Knight reached down, gripping the muscle of Talon's inner thigh within the space between his two legs, massaging the mound of rigid flesh as his eyes cast outward.
"Forgive me, Talon. My position is difficult. I can listen, but... I cannot always reply. I suspect that what they want of me -- aside from genetic matchmaking -- is that I serve as your bridge to the Imperium, a liaison to bolster your affection for our state. Given that... I cannot encourage discontent or rage towards the Imperium, I can only try to piece things together to help you understand our motivations. I hope you can understand this, companion, the position that I am in."
He turned his head, lifting a hand to smooth through Talon's locks as well, rummaging through them with enough gentle force that his head slightly rocked back and forth with each motion.
"You wanted to... lay with me, but the thought of giving up whatever children we bore from tonight rolled through, didn't it?" Asher smiled, solemnly. "I understand. We can wait another night, if you would want that. I received, a, ah... medicine, for encouraging our mutual affections, if that might help those lingering thoughts subside." The man gestured towards his pocket, a cylindrical shape evident through the fabric.
"Whenever you want to, Talon. Ponder these things if you must. I know it is something that will follow you, and I do not want you to lay with me with painful reservations."
It was all he could do to turn his head, facing towards the dark armor as it lingered there, much as it had throughout their time together. He'd thought to ask about it, but strayed from doing so. There was little eagerness that Kathar be curious men -- information was given to them when necessary, and rarely upon request. Given that, he tried to suppress the eerie feeling imparted onto him by the dark metal sheets, pressing his lips together and rolling his head back near the center of Talon's lap.
Asher said nothing. He could not advise Talon on that, either, because he did not know what the armor was, or what it would do to him. He did not want the other man to lose his gentle nature, or to become some thoughtless weapon for the Empire. Loyal as he was, Asher was also well aware of the corrupting influence of power. Wielding Talon as a tool of dominion would not make the Imperium any more righteous -- if anything, doing so risked a pernicious descent.
The man seemed distracted, even as Talon's face neared his. The other man's hands on his body felt nice -- very much so -- but he did not want to lose sight of his worries, dark thoughts or not. He reached up to grab and squeeze at the edge of the other man's pectoral, before anchoring himself and sliding upright, moving so that his back laid gently into the Synnekar's chest. Asher breathed out, sharply, and whispered into his ear.
"Don't wear it," he murmured, the Knight's breath rolling over his lover's skin. "I enjoy you the way you are, my companion."
He felt a sting in his chest, feedback from betraying the precepts that were subconsciously ingrained into him. He had explicitly asked for the other to go against the Imperium's preferences, its will. Looking at the darkly clad plate, though, he envisioned Talon as just another killer -- another Imperial harbinger of war and devastation, and he felt repulsed. Some of it, he acknowledged, was pride. The Kathar had always been enough, and the Imperium's influence had only grown over time, not waned. He wondered why they would seek to harness a Divine, even to change him, corrupt him.
It was all difficult to grasp, and it made him feel weary. Finally, he decided he would not linger on this subject anymore, just as Talon had advised. The Knight reached down, gripping the muscle of Talon's inner thigh within the space between his two legs, massaging the mound of rigid flesh as his eyes cast outward.
"Forgive me, Talon. My position is difficult. I can listen, but... I cannot always reply. I suspect that what they want of me -- aside from genetic matchmaking -- is that I serve as your bridge to the Imperium, a liaison to bolster your affection for our state. Given that... I cannot encourage discontent or rage towards the Imperium, I can only try to piece things together to help you understand our motivations. I hope you can understand this, companion, the position that I am in."
He turned his head, lifting a hand to smooth through Talon's locks as well, rummaging through them with enough gentle force that his head slightly rocked back and forth with each motion.
"You wanted to... lay with me, but the thought of giving up whatever children we bore from tonight rolled through, didn't it?" Asher smiled, solemnly. "I understand. We can wait another night, if you would want that. I received, a, ah... medicine, for encouraging our mutual affections, if that might help those lingering thoughts subside." The man gestured towards his pocket, a cylindrical shape evident through the fabric.
"Whenever you want to, Talon. Ponder these things if you must. I know it is something that will follow you, and I do not want you to lay with me with painful reservations."