Re: Who We Were
Posted: Tue Nov 28, 2023 9:29 pm
She moved and the shadow curled itself around her body, fusing like a second skin where it touched hers, and only the ends of her curls were visible beyond the veil of its darkened hood, red ringlets tipped with gold.
“Come, let us make haste.”
Yeva pushed out from the promise of the hall and then stopped a few feet from the door, her guardians beside her, before she hesitated and peeked back into the quiet room, at all the fearful faces that had yet to move, “Thank you for everything,” she offered once more, solemn and polite, although many of the gifts still sat in a pile where she had once been the guest of honor. A few bone necklaces were still hanging beneath the cloak and unfamiliar flowers tucked into her hair, “I will return with answers. My name is Yeva,” a reminder to them, as the first time her name had been spoken had been filled with tension, when a spear had still been pressed against her throat. She tried to smile, to give some sort of hopeful promise, but beneath the hood, the beauty of her face was unseen, “Do not forget me.”
A small nod, and then she was gone again, hurrying across the bridge and down the winding path that had held a procession in her honor less than an hour before. Her small feet fluttered across the walkway, barely touching earth before soaring her forward. Towards the beginning of the end.
“Wait!”
An urgency in Vuka’s voice shocked her and she immediately ceased her journey, turning to look at the Seer. Vuka was calm, poised, but there was a tragedy to her words.
"I'm sorry, it was so much to take in. There's so much... loneliness here? Did either of you feel that? I almost thought I would lose myself there for a moment."
Yeva faltered. Had she felt the loneliness? She had been so distracted, so absorbed in her own path. She swallowed, chewing her bottom lip while her eyes admitted the truth. She had felt little more than loneliness in so long, it had all woven together. Could she distinguish one agony from another now, or was she growing numb in some way? Her fingers brushed the smooth metal of the sword that hung from her hip.
“Are you alright?”
Even as she spoke, the hood was guiding her attention, subtly pulling away from Vuka, towards the direction they still needed to travel, “They said it had been many generations since…” Since when? She was speaking softly now, thoughts spoken aloud, “They must have been alone for so long.”
The prophecy.
Any further speech died in her throat. Voices weighed upon her, so many voices. They rose like a wave, growing in power.
"Please, help her, she's in pain."
“She’s in pain?” Yeva turned away from her companions, back to the path. She looked into the middle distance, eyes darting, “Vich'uvi?”
"If she falls, the Vale will fall." “What do you mean?” Yeva wasn’t sure of her own words, but she said them anyway, as if trying to comfort another, “She-"
"The Fatebreaker will save her." “I am trying-”
The voices believed in her. Some mourned, “Don’t cry…. I… slow down, I can’t hear you.” Yeva wandered once more trancelike, less sure than before until they were back in the endless darkness of the Vale, tucked into the wings of shadows, and the voices were all around them. Some cried, others celebrated. Who was she to listen to? Who was she to trust?
She stood, suspended in the dusk, listening to the thousands that spoke to her, that spoke about her, to voices that warned and wished.
One step and then another, until thunder cracked and she stood beneath the heavy rain, dazed as fat raindrops soaked her through. She felt dizzy and lightheaded, as if she had been dreaming too long, and looked around, as if waking in an unfamiliar place. They were back under the canopy, and lightening shattered the air above. Energy crackled and Yeva could taste it on her tongue. The Chieftan was looking at her, seperating her weapon into two, as she offered appraisal to the strange shadow that clung to her.
Her shadow?
Yeva knew out of many Chieftain's, it was Boraba that believed mostly in the old ways. Yet, here she was. Here they both were. While Yeva came back to herself, a sense of thankfulness warmed her heart, but it was darkened.
“My star?”
Her words since leaving the goblins had been distant, her actions, less predictable. Yeva had been a vessel on this journey, speaking to people seen, and unseen, the veil of reality becoming opaque. This, however, was direct. She looked directly at the Chieftain, clear and bright-eyed, “My star?”
Yeva knew out of many Chieftain's, it was Boraba that believed mostly in the old ways. Yet, here she was. Here they all were. She had not sought to get upset, but she felt felt a deep wound, taking offense at the idea that one path was more worthy than another. Whether intended or not, Yeva had always admired Boraba’s strength and achievement for her age, but were they not of similar youth? Yeva was not a warrior, but she carried the weight of many, now and forgotten, and more responsibility now than she could have ever fathomed when she took the goddess’s hand to walk through the door. There was even expectation hidden from her. She carried more than just the Ounokt Nora. She navigated the fate of the world.
“It is not my star. Galetira plucked it from the sea, and formed it!... How... how could you say that?”
The pressure was beginning to strain her resolve, she felt her strength cracking. Her patience.
This duty was asked by the goddess. Galetira was the one who tasked them to wait for her in the plains, was she not? Yeva laughed, but it came out dry and bitter, washed out by the rain. Orcs would not even claim ownership of land or sea, and yet a star, a problematic recourse of a cruel fate, filled with complexity and problems and demands, that... that was hers. How lovely. Such an honor, a burden, that was her dowry, her birthright.
Yeva turned away, shaking her head. Trying to rid herself of these angry imposter thoughts. She told herself that Boraba did not mean offense, that it was not meant to be a slight.
It hurt nonetheless.
"I have done everything right! I have always been kind. I have been openminded. I have been forgiving. I follow the signs. I ask for nothing in return. Why....! Why....!" she felt herself choke up, fold in on herself, Why is this happening to me? I did not wish to be lost! That star is the only way I will ever walk Ransera again!”
The little girl always overlooked, always just middle of the pack, never outstanding, never noticed ...was now unmistakably important. It was only recently, starting with her friendship in Franky and blooming in Norani, had she ever been told to expect worth, told she was beautiful. Wise. Brave. Bright, blazing, and warm.
" Please.. hold on. You are strong, Yeva Bleu. Fight for everything you have. Fight with everything you hold dear."
Yeva sighed against her anger, releasing it to a simmering sorrow, "I'm sorry," she whispered to the others, ashamed at her outburst, "I feel so tired... I know." She was whining, she wasn't being a leader, or a savior, or whatever it was the voices echoed or the fates predicted, , "Everyone's counting on me." This she said softly, to herself, before waving the others closer. More than anything, she wished to fall into their arms, to be folded into a hug, like they might have given her when she still walked the land.
"Thank you for being here... Thank you for... everything."
And then, after waiting a moment for the feelings to pass and any conversation needed, Yeva led them.
Into unknown, uncharted depths, where secrets and shadows watched... and waited.
“Come, let us make haste.”
Yeva pushed out from the promise of the hall and then stopped a few feet from the door, her guardians beside her, before she hesitated and peeked back into the quiet room, at all the fearful faces that had yet to move, “Thank you for everything,” she offered once more, solemn and polite, although many of the gifts still sat in a pile where she had once been the guest of honor. A few bone necklaces were still hanging beneath the cloak and unfamiliar flowers tucked into her hair, “I will return with answers. My name is Yeva,” a reminder to them, as the first time her name had been spoken had been filled with tension, when a spear had still been pressed against her throat. She tried to smile, to give some sort of hopeful promise, but beneath the hood, the beauty of her face was unseen, “Do not forget me.”
A small nod, and then she was gone again, hurrying across the bridge and down the winding path that had held a procession in her honor less than an hour before. Her small feet fluttered across the walkway, barely touching earth before soaring her forward. Towards the beginning of the end.
“Wait!”
An urgency in Vuka’s voice shocked her and she immediately ceased her journey, turning to look at the Seer. Vuka was calm, poised, but there was a tragedy to her words.
"I'm sorry, it was so much to take in. There's so much... loneliness here? Did either of you feel that? I almost thought I would lose myself there for a moment."
Yeva faltered. Had she felt the loneliness? She had been so distracted, so absorbed in her own path. She swallowed, chewing her bottom lip while her eyes admitted the truth. She had felt little more than loneliness in so long, it had all woven together. Could she distinguish one agony from another now, or was she growing numb in some way? Her fingers brushed the smooth metal of the sword that hung from her hip.
“Are you alright?”
Even as she spoke, the hood was guiding her attention, subtly pulling away from Vuka, towards the direction they still needed to travel, “They said it had been many generations since…” Since when? She was speaking softly now, thoughts spoken aloud, “They must have been alone for so long.”
The prophecy.
Any further speech died in her throat. Voices weighed upon her, so many voices. They rose like a wave, growing in power.
"Please, help her, she's in pain."
“She’s in pain?” Yeva turned away from her companions, back to the path. She looked into the middle distance, eyes darting, “Vich'uvi?”
"If she falls, the Vale will fall." “What do you mean?” Yeva wasn’t sure of her own words, but she said them anyway, as if trying to comfort another, “She-"
"The Fatebreaker will save her." “I am trying-”
The voices believed in her. Some mourned, “Don’t cry…. I… slow down, I can’t hear you.” Yeva wandered once more trancelike, less sure than before until they were back in the endless darkness of the Vale, tucked into the wings of shadows, and the voices were all around them. Some cried, others celebrated. Who was she to listen to? Who was she to trust?
She stood, suspended in the dusk, listening to the thousands that spoke to her, that spoke about her, to voices that warned and wished.
One step and then another, until thunder cracked and she stood beneath the heavy rain, dazed as fat raindrops soaked her through. She felt dizzy and lightheaded, as if she had been dreaming too long, and looked around, as if waking in an unfamiliar place. They were back under the canopy, and lightening shattered the air above. Energy crackled and Yeva could taste it on her tongue. The Chieftan was looking at her, seperating her weapon into two, as she offered appraisal to the strange shadow that clung to her.
Her shadow?
Yeva knew out of many Chieftain's, it was Boraba that believed mostly in the old ways. Yet, here she was. Here they both were. While Yeva came back to herself, a sense of thankfulness warmed her heart, but it was darkened.
“My star?”
Her words since leaving the goblins had been distant, her actions, less predictable. Yeva had been a vessel on this journey, speaking to people seen, and unseen, the veil of reality becoming opaque. This, however, was direct. She looked directly at the Chieftain, clear and bright-eyed, “My star?”
Yeva knew out of many Chieftain's, it was Boraba that believed mostly in the old ways. Yet, here she was. Here they all were. She had not sought to get upset, but she felt felt a deep wound, taking offense at the idea that one path was more worthy than another. Whether intended or not, Yeva had always admired Boraba’s strength and achievement for her age, but were they not of similar youth? Yeva was not a warrior, but she carried the weight of many, now and forgotten, and more responsibility now than she could have ever fathomed when she took the goddess’s hand to walk through the door. There was even expectation hidden from her. She carried more than just the Ounokt Nora. She navigated the fate of the world.
“It is not my star. Galetira plucked it from the sea, and formed it!... How... how could you say that?”
The pressure was beginning to strain her resolve, she felt her strength cracking. Her patience.
This duty was asked by the goddess. Galetira was the one who tasked them to wait for her in the plains, was she not? Yeva laughed, but it came out dry and bitter, washed out by the rain. Orcs would not even claim ownership of land or sea, and yet a star, a problematic recourse of a cruel fate, filled with complexity and problems and demands, that... that was hers. How lovely. Such an honor, a burden, that was her dowry, her birthright.
Yeva turned away, shaking her head. Trying to rid herself of these angry imposter thoughts. She told herself that Boraba did not mean offense, that it was not meant to be a slight.
It hurt nonetheless.
"I have done everything right! I have always been kind. I have been openminded. I have been forgiving. I follow the signs. I ask for nothing in return. Why....! Why....!" she felt herself choke up, fold in on herself, Why is this happening to me? I did not wish to be lost! That star is the only way I will ever walk Ransera again!”
The little girl always overlooked, always just middle of the pack, never outstanding, never noticed ...was now unmistakably important. It was only recently, starting with her friendship in Franky and blooming in Norani, had she ever been told to expect worth, told she was beautiful. Wise. Brave. Bright, blazing, and warm.
" Please.. hold on. You are strong, Yeva Bleu. Fight for everything you have. Fight with everything you hold dear."
Yeva sighed against her anger, releasing it to a simmering sorrow, "I'm sorry," she whispered to the others, ashamed at her outburst, "I feel so tired... I know." She was whining, she wasn't being a leader, or a savior, or whatever it was the voices echoed or the fates predicted, , "Everyone's counting on me." This she said softly, to herself, before waving the others closer. More than anything, she wished to fall into their arms, to be folded into a hug, like they might have given her when she still walked the land.
"Thank you for being here... Thank you for... everything."
And then, after waiting a moment for the feelings to pass and any conversation needed, Yeva led them.
Into unknown, uncharted depths, where secrets and shadows watched... and waited.