old new friends
Posted: Sun Feb 28, 2021 6:23 pm
old new friends
He had come back from the dead. At least, that was what it had felt like when he had awoken from the events down in the Warrens. The feeling of opening his eyes, to be touched by sunlight and to find Rickter and Aoren holding him with a look of pure relief on their faces had brought him to tears. He had clung to both of them. He had begged their forgiveness. The following days had been a very rough adjustment as he figured out exactly what it was that had happened to him. He was different. He was still himself but he was no longer just Talon, the Avialae son of the sovereign of Kalzasi. He was...something more. There were moments when he thought he could see the hint of something just on the horizon of his vision. When he concentrated he felt as though he could see past the Veil of the mundane realm, almost like when he touched upon the powers of Semblance or his Aether Sight.
Then came the voices.
At first he thought he was just hearing things. Then he had focused on them, he had concentrated on them. The whispers had become a burbling stream of words and cries for help that Talon had thought would drive him mad. It had only been when his bondmates had stepped in to help wall him off from the stream of thoughts into his head, that he had found a bit of peace. Talon had spent days figuring out exactly what it was that he was hearing. And then he had realized what it was; he was hearing prayers. More than that, he was hearing cries for Justice. Pleas with the heavens to bring some sort of true and honest justice to face many of the injustices that were transpiring in the city of Kalzasi and some of its territory. The noise had been almost deafening and it had shaken Talon to his core.
How could he have been so blind to so much desperation for all of his life? It had made him sick to his stomach so bad that he had experienced a very real physical reaction. To help him focus and to get him away from the weight of it all, Talon had retreated to the more remote places around his home. The roar had quieted the further he had gotten from Kalzasi proper. That allowed him to think, to breathe, to feel something other than the burning need to move and do something to answer the hundreds of compulsions he felt spinning inside of him.
So there he sat, at the center of the Circle of Wandering, cautiously listening as best he could. He had come to the realization that there was a range of his awareness. The closer one was to his physical person, the more easily he could discern what exactly the person was reaching for. The further one was, the less clear their desire was. It came only as a vague feeling on the edges of his awareness.
“What is it like?” Talon opened his eyes, letting his silver irises settle upon the softly burning witchfires of his lover’s gaze. That was another change he was getting used to. His eyes had always been a grey color but now there was no mistaking the mercurial silver quality to them. His brother had asked about the change. Talon had not lied to him but he also had not answered the question directly. He set those thoughts, and how he might deal with the rest of his family, aside for the moment.
Aoren had been with him the entire time. Not for a moment had he left his side. Talon was grateful for it. He did not think he would have been able to get through this without him. There was also the fact that he could feel inside of Aoren a sliver of the echo of grief that had overwhelmed his partner for the short time he believed Talon had been dead. It was very much like what he had experienced with Riven but worse. Even the echo of it gripped his chest with shame and regret. He never wanted to see his partner that devastated again.
“Imagine sitting in a lecture hall. Every person is speaking on the same topic and yet every person interprets that topic differently. All of them desire it but that desire is manifested in different ways.” He kept his attention on the feelings, the whispers, and the urge in the back of his mind at a low level of focus. He found that if he acknowledged the presence of the chorus overall and worked to quiet them not individually but as a grouped entity, he could manage it better. With each day, he was learning how to navigate the steady stream that seemed intent on garnering his attention.
“What happens when you concentrate on one voice?” Aoren was leaning against one of the statues. His brow was furrowed in a look of concern but there was curiosity there as well.
“I can see them or...maybe just how they see themselves. I do not quite know yet.” Talon focused on one of the voices that called out to him. He could just make out their form but he did not stray into it too much.
“I still can’t believe it. You’re...you’re truly a god.” Aoren’s voice was mystified. Talon felt his emotions swell with awe, reverence, and even a touch of something else. It was that feeling that drew his immediate attention. He turned his head to regard his bondmate more carefully.
“Demigod.” Talon said the word with emphasis. He rose to his feet and stepped toward Aoren. The muscles in his bondmate’s body tensed for just a moment.
There it was.
Talon stared at his bondmate, mouth slightly agape as his eyes slowly widened.
“Afraid? You are afraid of me?” Aoren flinched.
“Talon…” His bondmate stepped forward but Talon drew back as though he had been struck.
“No. Do not deny it.” His wings lifted, the arms spreading slightly as his feathers stood straighter. Aoren strode forward then. He reached up, hands brushing along Talon’s wings in an effort to calm him.
“You’re right. I am afraid. Not of you, Talon. I am afraid for you.” He brought his hands to cup Talon’s face before resting their foreheads together. Talon grasped his partner’s wrists. The two of them shared a moment of silence before Talon felt his attention drawn by something else. Or rather, someone else. He did not know how he knew but there was a feeling, a yearning that called to him. It held a distinct and old weight to it that made the hairs on the back of Talon’s neck stand on end. It was a feeling he had felt when he had neared her shop to first speak with her after everything had happened. The feeling had been so strong, Talon had immediately turned and fled from it. He remembered it well.
“She is here.” Aoren frowned. He slowly slid his hands down, leaning forward to peck Talon’s cheek lightly before stepping to the side. He kept a hand situated on the small of Talon’s back, a touch that he was grateful for. It helped to ground him. Talon took a breath and worked to tune out the background noise. This would require his full attention.
He did not yet know if that would be a good thing.
70th of Frost, 120 Steel
Talon sat at the center of the Circle of Wandering. His brow was furrowed in concentration as he worked to sort through the dozens of thoughts that were in his head. He could still hear the whisper of the voices that called out to him. He was moved to act but after the first incident, he was hesitant to do so.
He had come back from the dead. At least, that was what it had felt like when he had awoken from the events down in the Warrens. The feeling of opening his eyes, to be touched by sunlight and to find Rickter and Aoren holding him with a look of pure relief on their faces had brought him to tears. He had clung to both of them. He had begged their forgiveness. The following days had been a very rough adjustment as he figured out exactly what it was that had happened to him. He was different. He was still himself but he was no longer just Talon, the Avialae son of the sovereign of Kalzasi. He was...something more. There were moments when he thought he could see the hint of something just on the horizon of his vision. When he concentrated he felt as though he could see past the Veil of the mundane realm, almost like when he touched upon the powers of Semblance or his Aether Sight.
Then came the voices.
At first he thought he was just hearing things. Then he had focused on them, he had concentrated on them. The whispers had become a burbling stream of words and cries for help that Talon had thought would drive him mad. It had only been when his bondmates had stepped in to help wall him off from the stream of thoughts into his head, that he had found a bit of peace. Talon had spent days figuring out exactly what it was that he was hearing. And then he had realized what it was; he was hearing prayers. More than that, he was hearing cries for Justice. Pleas with the heavens to bring some sort of true and honest justice to face many of the injustices that were transpiring in the city of Kalzasi and some of its territory. The noise had been almost deafening and it had shaken Talon to his core.
How could he have been so blind to so much desperation for all of his life? It had made him sick to his stomach so bad that he had experienced a very real physical reaction. To help him focus and to get him away from the weight of it all, Talon had retreated to the more remote places around his home. The roar had quieted the further he had gotten from Kalzasi proper. That allowed him to think, to breathe, to feel something other than the burning need to move and do something to answer the hundreds of compulsions he felt spinning inside of him.
So there he sat, at the center of the Circle of Wandering, cautiously listening as best he could. He had come to the realization that there was a range of his awareness. The closer one was to his physical person, the more easily he could discern what exactly the person was reaching for. The further one was, the less clear their desire was. It came only as a vague feeling on the edges of his awareness.
“What is it like?” Talon opened his eyes, letting his silver irises settle upon the softly burning witchfires of his lover’s gaze. That was another change he was getting used to. His eyes had always been a grey color but now there was no mistaking the mercurial silver quality to them. His brother had asked about the change. Talon had not lied to him but he also had not answered the question directly. He set those thoughts, and how he might deal with the rest of his family, aside for the moment.
Aoren had been with him the entire time. Not for a moment had he left his side. Talon was grateful for it. He did not think he would have been able to get through this without him. There was also the fact that he could feel inside of Aoren a sliver of the echo of grief that had overwhelmed his partner for the short time he believed Talon had been dead. It was very much like what he had experienced with Riven but worse. Even the echo of it gripped his chest with shame and regret. He never wanted to see his partner that devastated again.
“Imagine sitting in a lecture hall. Every person is speaking on the same topic and yet every person interprets that topic differently. All of them desire it but that desire is manifested in different ways.” He kept his attention on the feelings, the whispers, and the urge in the back of his mind at a low level of focus. He found that if he acknowledged the presence of the chorus overall and worked to quiet them not individually but as a grouped entity, he could manage it better. With each day, he was learning how to navigate the steady stream that seemed intent on garnering his attention.
“What happens when you concentrate on one voice?” Aoren was leaning against one of the statues. His brow was furrowed in a look of concern but there was curiosity there as well.
“I can see them or...maybe just how they see themselves. I do not quite know yet.” Talon focused on one of the voices that called out to him. He could just make out their form but he did not stray into it too much.
“I still can’t believe it. You’re...you’re truly a god.” Aoren’s voice was mystified. Talon felt his emotions swell with awe, reverence, and even a touch of something else. It was that feeling that drew his immediate attention. He turned his head to regard his bondmate more carefully.
“Demigod.” Talon said the word with emphasis. He rose to his feet and stepped toward Aoren. The muscles in his bondmate’s body tensed for just a moment.
There it was.
Talon stared at his bondmate, mouth slightly agape as his eyes slowly widened.
“Afraid? You are afraid of me?” Aoren flinched.
“Talon…” His bondmate stepped forward but Talon drew back as though he had been struck.
“No. Do not deny it.” His wings lifted, the arms spreading slightly as his feathers stood straighter. Aoren strode forward then. He reached up, hands brushing along Talon’s wings in an effort to calm him.
“You’re right. I am afraid. Not of you, Talon. I am afraid for you.” He brought his hands to cup Talon’s face before resting their foreheads together. Talon grasped his partner’s wrists. The two of them shared a moment of silence before Talon felt his attention drawn by something else. Or rather, someone else. He did not know how he knew but there was a feeling, a yearning that called to him. It held a distinct and old weight to it that made the hairs on the back of Talon’s neck stand on end. It was a feeling he had felt when he had neared her shop to first speak with her after everything had happened. The feeling had been so strong, Talon had immediately turned and fled from it. He remembered it well.
“She is here.” Aoren frowned. He slowly slid his hands down, leaning forward to peck Talon’s cheek lightly before stepping to the side. He kept a hand situated on the small of Talon’s back, a touch that he was grateful for. It helped to ground him. Talon took a breath and worked to tune out the background noise. This would require his full attention.
He did not yet know if that would be a good thing.
"I am Justice."