Ard Fuil
Posted: Mon Jan 13, 2020 8:02 pm
45th of Frost, Year 119
"I don't even want to look at it," he said. His palms were pressed against the edge of his drawer, the Siltori standing up and looming before the mirror, with the reflection of Lethiril from behind him clear as day.
"What?" the Dratori asked.
"The letter," he replied. "I can't imagine what he would want to say. I've... basically been keeping my head down for weeks, now. Two magics later, here I am. But in this area -- in all things personal -- nothing has changed."
"Read it, Taelian. You'll sod yourself with anxiety, otherwise."
"I know."
And so he did. The Siltori peeled the edges of the letter with his fingertips, and unsealed it, pulling the parchment from its sleeve and unfurling it before himself. He scanned it with his eyes, which appeared quite unfocused; he spent so much of his mental energy assuming what it would say, that he had a difficult time actually absorbing its contents. Finally, though, he looked to the ink-inscribed letters and was given the simple notice that his sword was ready.
"My... sword?" he asked himself, aloud. "Oh. Right."
"Your sword?" Lethiril raised a brow.
"I forgot that I had commissioned it. It's been... far away from my mind, really. I'm amazed that he even put the effort forward to work on it, and for five weeks at that; the last time we met, I was rather dismissive towards him. Cool, distant, and the closer I came the harsher I raked at what appeared to be his insecurities. It wasn't intentional at first, I just--"
"You told him the truth," said Leth.
"Right," Taelian replied. "But I suppose doing so -- suspecting what I did -- was fairly... novice of me. By approaching him in the manner I did, I confirmed my suspicions; ones that worried me so dearly. I placed a barrier of doubt over my relationship with Riven, even though I want to believe that barrier has not held us back. I began to worry of what would be; would I not be enough? How integral was I, compared to such a permanent companion? Even now, Lethiril, I cannot answer these questions. But they grate on me. I worry."
The Dratori sighed. He stood from the chair in the corner of the room and offered Taelian a pat on the back, even going so far as to hug him. The Siltori accepted, though it was brief before each of them simultaneously pulled away. "You forget yourself, Taelian," he said. "You are a handsome man, like your father was. A talented mage, like Eloise; a man filled with as much love to give as he has stories to tell. And your stories... they are many, and they are wonderful. You are a jewel, my old friend. And one of its kind, at that. You could never so easily be replaced."
He could admit that the words were uplifting. He looked back to the mirror, and examined himself. The subtleties. He had never really been concerned with his appearance before Riven, even though he knew the man would find him attractive no matter what. But still, he wanted to look better. To act better. To hold himself with greater poise, to stand on higher ground and to wield better control over his emotions. He wanted to be a mage to surpass Eloise -- to be worthy of legendary acclaim. He was no longer the young man who had left Sil-Elaine on a rotted, rust-covered train seeking only to fulfill Aldrin's will.
Taelian was beginning to change. He wanted... so much more.
"I'll go and see him," he nodded. "I have nothing to be afraid of. I know that. I'm a better man than I was even a fortnight ago; you have helped me grow. And Eloise. Thank you, Leth."
"It's no issue, Taelian," he softly smiled.
With a smile in return, the man prepared himself for the brief journey to the Skyforge. He left his home, wearing much the same in casual garbs as he often did, his Beacon allowing him to wear little more than a cloth tank-top despite the wintry conditions. He made his way to the Plaza of the Jeweled Arches, ignoring the odd stares that had begun to accumulate as he did. His Rune of Transposition was now open to bear, though he knew that wasn't all of why people stared. It was the clothes -- or, lack thereof. It was, after all, the dead of winter now and a particularly cold day. The Avialae were themselves often under dressed, but others surely wondered if he was attempting to imitate their winged kind.
He found himself at the entrance of the building again. Taelian stared at the entryway sign, with the shop's ground-level storefront betraying its full size. He pushed the door open and stepped through, glancing around as he entered the dimly lit room. Taelian stepped downstairs to the Forge, imagining that Talon might have been there. It was where they had last spoken, though he found himself unmoved by the familiarity.
"Talon?" he called out. "I got your letter. I'm here."